The live firing is tomorrow. It's past lights out and my bunk mates can't sleep because I'm laying on my bed writhing, wiggling and squirming (with anticipation). Weee! I think I can be a good worm.
Today we've got everything done quite smoothly and I must say that it is a great wing effort. All the appointment holders knew exactly what they needed to do and every single helper sacrificed their share of administrative time towards the cause.
I think I'll be getting lung cancer soon. I picked up smoking since I entered. I don't like smoking but I think I need to do it sometimes. I passed today's test but I don't know how many more tests can I smoke through.
I'll be waking up at 0330. Time to stop wiggling!
I hope you're having as much fun as I am! ;)
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Reasoning
Certain decisions in life are difficult to make when the balance of work efficiency and welfare come into the equation.
When things need to be done, diplomacy may not be the best solution. When decisions need to be made, someone needs to take the brunt of the recoil.
There will be a point where you would have to choose between a group of friends and a group of acquaintances. When feelings come into play and logics seem like a mile away, I do things that make me question my own ethics and moral integrity.
I made a decision today that made me a good person, but also an equally bad one. Today was just a matter of pouring a 3/4 cup of water to extinguish a fire, versus pouring two 1/2 cups of water to achieve the same effect.
What would you choose?
When things need to be done, diplomacy may not be the best solution. When decisions need to be made, someone needs to take the brunt of the recoil.
There will be a point where you would have to choose between a group of friends and a group of acquaintances. When feelings come into play and logics seem like a mile away, I do things that make me question my own ethics and moral integrity.
I made a decision today that made me a good person, but also an equally bad one. Today was just a matter of pouring a 3/4 cup of water to extinguish a fire, versus pouring two 1/2 cups of water to achieve the same effect.
What would you choose?
Monday, February 27, 2012
Lucky me!
I'll admit it, I've been bringing my phone around in my commander's bag everyday. When we were told to own up just now, I didn't; not because of personal integrity issues, but because I DIDN'T BRING IT OUT TODAY! Tell me about Murphy's law man, haha!
Today I'm in an exceptionally good mood. I didn't fail the dreaded MCM test! Honestly there were so many questions I wasn't able to answer outright that I thought I was not going to make the passing cut!
When I ponder about my recent performance, I came across a startling thought: Since when did I start thinking about how to PASS, instead of how to EXCEL? If I was just going to PASS then what makes me worthy to lead the others who also just PASSED?
"I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces. My duty is to LEAD, to EXCEL, and to OVERCOME".
We can recite the Officer's Creed a dozen times daily, but it's times like these that the words start to make sense. Each day I live, I shall take a step towards becoming one worthy of leading.
P.S. I told CPT Dacialyn from Signals during an interview that my goal in SAF is not to fail any of the examinations. She said it is a great and challenging goal. I think she's right.
Today I'm in an exceptionally good mood. I didn't fail the dreaded MCM test! Honestly there were so many questions I wasn't able to answer outright that I thought I was not going to make the passing cut!
When I ponder about my recent performance, I came across a startling thought: Since when did I start thinking about how to PASS, instead of how to EXCEL? If I was just going to PASS then what makes me worthy to lead the others who also just PASSED?
"I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces. My duty is to LEAD, to EXCEL, and to OVERCOME".
We can recite the Officer's Creed a dozen times daily, but it's times like these that the words start to make sense. Each day I live, I shall take a step towards becoming one worthy of leading.
P.S. I told CPT Dacialyn from Signals during an interview that my goal in SAF is not to fail any of the examinations. She said it is a great and challenging goal. I think she's right.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Late
This is going to be the first and last time I'm gonna be late. I'm never ever going to go through this again. What just happened was worse than SOC.
Note to anyone reading: Gate closes at 2145 to 2155.
I just found the epitome of humility. A captain walked out all the way where I came from and helped me retrieve a couple of my undergarments and uniform that fell out of my bag as I was rushing. He is exactly the kind of leader I want to be: like a sword that can pierce through steel in battle, yet can cut a tomato when someone needs soup.
I don't know if I can ever be like that. I find it difficult to have the right balance between being nice and being in charge. I'll start looking out for strategies that can help me make my men like me while not letting them step over my head. EOCC is full of people I can look up to and learn from.
Note to anyone reading: Gate closes at 2145 to 2155.
I just found the epitome of humility. A captain walked out all the way where I came from and helped me retrieve a couple of my undergarments and uniform that fell out of my bag as I was rushing. He is exactly the kind of leader I want to be: like a sword that can pierce through steel in battle, yet can cut a tomato when someone needs soup.
I don't know if I can ever be like that. I find it difficult to have the right balance between being nice and being in charge. I'll start looking out for strategies that can help me make my men like me while not letting them step over my head. EOCC is full of people I can look up to and learn from.
Pick yourself up
I did not do very well for the physical selection. In fact, I did really badly. It's times like these when I have high expectations I feel pain the most.
I misplaced the second last piece of the puzzle and when I was remedying it, I accidentally scrambled the whole thing. My nerves got the better of me. Of course, if I'm going to be like this then I probably shouldn't be in EOD or I would be a hazard to the rest.
It's not the end of everything. It's not the first time my expectations got crushed. Kelvin, pick yourself up, there are many more things to achieve out there... ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED!!!
I misplaced the second last piece of the puzzle and when I was remedying it, I accidentally scrambled the whole thing. My nerves got the better of me. Of course, if I'm going to be like this then I probably shouldn't be in EOD or I would be a hazard to the rest.
It's not the end of everything. It's not the first time my expectations got crushed. Kelvin, pick yourself up, there are many more things to achieve out there... ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED!!!
Friday, February 24, 2012
Made it through!
I finally made it through the seemingly never-ending week! I'm glad that practicals wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be and much leniency was granted by the invigilating instructors. I should learn to reciprocate by putting in more effort the next time round.
The last hurdle of the week would be the CBRE selection test tomorrow. I heard that it is linked to the EOD selections so I better make sure I do well. The film crew would be there as usual. I'm camera-shy, so I hope it doesn't affect my performance too much.
The last hurdle of the week would be the CBRE selection test tomorrow. I heard that it is linked to the EOD selections so I better make sure I do well. The film crew would be there as usual. I'm camera-shy, so I hope it doesn't affect my performance too much.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Tiring
It has been a really tiring week. It started off with a terribly tiring guard duty and I haven't been able to catch up with the sleep ever since. I don't know how I would manage with the practicals tomorrow seeing that I have already forgotten half of the details covered. I hope I do well.
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